The second year of the course of meditation seemed to be different than the first year from the beginning. In my first year of the course, I tried to focus on meditating but I just could not keep my mind on it fully. I feel like I have matured over time, during the first year of the course as well.

I could sense my improvement during the classes when I would fall into meditating rather than keeping my eyes open or sleeping. At first, I felt like I was just giving up or giving into failure so I would just stop trying. But I felt like giving up was not an option so I kept trying. My first year I was dealing with a lot more stress but I did not know how to handle it and I did not know how to fully focus. In my second year of the meditation course, I was fully into the meditation. I was actually ready by the first class and I could get into the different types of meditations.

In the first year of the course, I could not feel anything in my mind but in the second year of the course I felt everything in my mind rushing. It was a new experience.